Introspection

Sometimes life’s experiences don’t feel all that significant.  At times like this, rather than writing off experiences and considering a week wasted, I try to change my mindset and view little events as just as worthy.  Take, for instance this weekend.  In Singapore it is a bank holiday weekend and when I found out, I had all these grandiose plans of sweeping out of my final lecture on Thursday, boarding a plane to some undefined, but undeniably fabulous location before returning Sunday evening, sun-kissed and somehow enlightened from three days abroad.

In reality, my weekend has been nothing like this.  Rather than spending the preceding week sighing over glamorous photos of sandy shores or rugged rainforest, I spent it holed up in my room trying to make a video that explained quantum mechanics in relatively simple terms for part of my coursework.  This task made harder by the fact that I am increasingly certain I have absolutely no clue when it comes to quantum mechanics.

By the time I had submitted the video, the weekend was upon me and I had no plans.  At this point it was all too easy for my brain to start down the paths of if only I’d… and everyone else is going somewhere, am I not making the most of this amazing opportunity that has been handed to me?

Upon some introspection, the answer to this last was… perhaps.  Not necessarily the answer I wanted to find, but the answer nonetheless.  Despite this, there were a few things I reminded myself before I began to feel all gloomy.  First, not everyone was going away even if the exchangers’ Facebook page made it seem like they were.  Secondly, a lot of people are only here for one semester so are trying to fit in as much as possible, and finally, I’m studying physics and while I may only need a pass, I care about doing well.  Armed with these three things in mind, I looked over the week at the things I had done, rather than at the things I hadn’t.

cold brew

For starters, I worked out how to cold brew coffee so I can keep a bottle in the fridge for my morning caffeine fix.  I’ve also discovered that I don’t particularly like cold coffee, but that if I microwave it, it becomes drinkable.  Sadly, this is more than can be said for a lot of the coffee I’ve tried in Singapore (shout out to Platypus Food Bar for being next to all my lectures and selling a marvelous black coffee).

I’ve been charity shop shopping and accidentally haggled over the price of a pair of shoes when I misheard the price.  Talking of good ol’ retail therapy, I went to Orchard Road and experienced the mild terror of going into a mall that contains hundreds of boutique sized shops in a labyrinthine layout.  Fortunately, I learnt how to say no to friendly sales assistants and not feel guilt tripped into buying clothes several years ago after spending a hefty portion of my pocket money on a lovely scarf and black roll neck in one of Guernsey’s many boutiques.  Two items I admittedly still love, but at the time wished I’d shown a little more restraint when purchasing.

20170804_220712.jpgSample the nightlife can be ticked off the list as well.  Clubbing is not something I go out of my way to do but sometimes it’s nice to feel a beat thrumming in your bones.  My experience of it in Singapore places it firmly on the same level in my mind as my experience of it back home.  I still don’t recognize half the songs and some people still need gentle persuasion when it comes to the look but don’t touch rule.  That or an education on no means (expletive of choice) off NOT I enjoy you, a total stranger, trying to grab and grind from behind.  However, I refuse to judge all people based on a select few’s behaviour and some people were genuinely kind, helping me with my gentle persuasion before I was too heavily tempted to use less gentle means, which is probably a good thing given the strict laws in Singapore.

On a more positive note, I signed up for Lindy Hop dance classes, which promises to be exciting, especially given my growing love of swing music.  Armed with a single class we headed down to the boardwalk at Marina Bay and joined a Lindy Hop social called Swing the Night Away that was open to anyone.  It was a huge amount of fun and I’m already looking forward to next time I can dance with a backdrop of fluorescent skyscrapers reflected in darkened waters.

So all in all, I have done a lot and still have plenty of time to travel beyond Singapore.  Therefore, I will continue to take the world day by day, without worrying about if I am doing “enough”.  Or at least I’ll try to, practice makes perfect after all.

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